So my cat is Toothless.
Back-story: For my entire life, up to my earliest memories, I have had really shitty sleep. As I’ve gotten older it has gotten worse.
I really need prayer. Please. When I’m asleep it’s like I’m living other lives. I don’t get to rest. My dreams are always upsetting and there is always chaos. I’m always being chased by a person, or by groups. There is always murder. I’m lost or trying to find someone. I have puzzles that my life depends on or someone else’s life depends on, and I can’t do it. People are harassing me or attacking me or stalking me. People rape other people. It makes me wake up in despair because it’s everything wrong with the world and when I go to sleep it’s still there. I wake up multiple times a night and the dreams just continue from where they left off, or another one just as bad or worse springs up. What I hate even more is that my dreams intertwine. Houses in one dream show up in another and in the dream I know that I have seen them before in another part of what has happened to me- even if it was months ago that in real life it showed up in a dream. I or someone else wears a pair of shoes from another dream and in the new dream I know that I have seen them before. I have met new people in dreams that I have never met in real life and they spring up again in another dream and I know who they are and their “life” story has carried over to this new dream. Nightmares continue from where they left off a month ago, or the same story starts and something different but worse happens. I have another life when I sleep. That’s what it really feels like. It’s all connected, it’s all terrible. It’s all that happens when I sleep. When I wake up it’s from a dream. When I fall asleep it comes back. I have multiple bad dreams or nightmares every night and they all connect somehow, eventually. I am in complete despair because I don’t get any kind of rest. I don’t get any reprieve from the world. I’m tired. It makes life difficult because I’ve heard sleep is supposed to recharge you and instead it drains me more. Please, pray. And not just once. I need it a lot, every day. Please.
Traveling
Hey everyone,
I will be in Europe for a whole month this summer!
The long and the short of it is that I want any tips and ideas for being in Europe that is related to: forms of transportation, food, places to stay (youth hostels), fun things to do, and anything else.
Keep in mind that I am poor and I’m trying to have maximum fun with the smallest amount of money. Please tell me anything you can, and please pass this along so that others can help, too.
Aaah help!
My boss wants me to design a flyer for a “week” that we’re having next week. Design? You betcha. Actually make it? Not so much…can anyone teach me or do it or show me a cool (free) program that can help? Anything like that? Message me here, or reply to this, or add me on Facebook (or add me just because) or email me: sethharrington@ymail.com
Help!?
Nevermind, I figured it out and my boss likes it.
Back to not using this…
Aaah help!
My boss wants me to design a flyer for a “week” that we’re having next week. Design? You betcha. Actually make it? Not so much…can anyone teach me or do it or show me a cool (free) program that can help? Anything like that? Message me here, or reply to this, or add me on Facebook (or add me just because) or email me: sethharrington@ymail.com
Help!?
News!
I made a new blog! I feel like I’m in a new place in my life, and I want to cut away the old. This won’t be deleted, but I won’t post on it. You can find me at sirsmilealot.tumblr.com sir smile a lot
I’ll be following you, so that’s a good reminder to follow me :P
I do want to keep contact with you though, I like you.
I will reblog this periodically for probably a week and then be done.
❝ Jesus came to set you free not only from your sin, but from the guilt and shame that fuels it. The reality is that you will mess up. You will look at something you shouldn’t, do something you shouldn’t. After that is over you will have a choice, to go back to Jesus and figure out how to get it right next time; or to assume that God is disgusted with you and try to find solace in the little pleasure that lust brought you. God does not condemn you, don’t try to condemn yourself on His behalf. God’s grace is bigger than your any of your sins, even lust. ❞
— from the August BridgeBox Bible Study (via thebridgechicago)
News!
I made a new blog! I feel like I’m in a new place in my life, and I want to cut away the old. This won’t be deleted, but I won’t post on it. You can find me at sirsmilealot.tumblr.com sir smile a lot
I’ll be following you, so that’s a good reminder to follow me :P
I do want to keep contact with you though, I like you.
I will reblog this periodically for probably a week and then be done.
News!
I made a new blog! I feel like I’m in a new place in my life, and I want to cut away the old. This won’t be deleted, but I won’t post on it. You can find me at sirsmilealot.tumblr.com sir smile a lot
I’ll be following you, so that’s a good reminder to follow me :P
I do want to keep contact with you though, I like you.
I will reblog this periodically for probably a week and then be done.
❝ When I reach the frontier of need and know my limitations, Jesus says – “Blessed are you.” But I have to get there. God cannot put into me, a responsible moral being, the disposition that was in Jesus Christ unless I am conscious I need it. ❞
— Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest: October 6 (via technicolortaylor)